I have been given an invitation from the lord in this season of being a new mom that I will never have again. I’m not sure what the lesson is or where the Lord is taking me, but this I know. I cannot move forward in God by trying to live in the way I moved forward in the past. This is a new season and an invitation to go deep in a way I never have. I can’t move forward by functioning in the same capacity as I was. I am no longer single and it is no longer just my husband and I. Now I am a married woman with a baby. Therefore going hard after God does not look like what it used to. I must figure out how to love Jesus as I do motherhood without comparing myself to the single fiery young adult I once was. Fiery looks different today than yesterday. If I simply love Jesus and talk to Him as I’m cleaning, changing diapers, letting the dog out, cooking, washing dishes and running errands I have succeeded. Looking backward only prevents you from growing in God and then you stay stagnant, wishing you could have again what you did, when something new and fascinating is right around the corner. You can’t move forward in God now by looking backward to then.
